Why Go For It?

I have always desired something that cannot be taken away, that is lasting and cannot diminish, that is the full measure of everything. Something that I so intimately own that I do not feel owned by it. Something so personal, so expanded and unshakeable, so full of contentment that everything and everyone is included. Something that is completely individual but so full of understanding and divine perception that they continuously over-flow abundantly with their divine qualities into every facet of my personal and family life. Add to this, it must be lots of fun, easy to share and powerfully present. It must be so brilliantly everywhere that all the senses can experience it, that the mind can know it and the heart can feel it, that however far or fast I travel in body or mind I should never reach beyond its pervasive influence. And lastly it must be clear and unwaveringly known by me specifically as infinate, eternal Self-Awareness. This is what unified awareness is and means to me.

At Our Fingertips

There is an on-going state of delightful, perpetual self-awareness that I know and experience and therefore you should too. There is no conceivable reason why many, many individuals should not be having this experience. We are all equipped with the full compliment of qualities and abilities to realize the entire, natural potential of personal life. The central idea for up-coming new book is to describe three extraordinary states of awareness and their close, natural relationship to regular life. It is because of this closeness to regular life that they are within sight for everyone. And how the transformations from one to the next can become a grand story of one unified, living possibility. How by adding experience and understanding to just living our day to day lives is already a good start to the first dawning of simple, conscious self-awareness. Life in general is already a path to full awareness which we are all inherently designed to successfully traverse. But it is mostly viewed as a compulsory obstacle course to who knows where. It is pretty obvious that the normal evolutionary process without any assistance is by itself very slow, we surely want to move much faster. We can. Closer to the goal as the speed gets faster and smother there are less and less hurdles to overcome. Not because they are not there but they do not loom so large in relation to the conscious delight that is beginning to fill our hearts.

When I started getting longer flashes of what I was soon to realize, it was very motivating, whatever doubts I may have had took a decidedly backseat to my expanding fascination. Needless to say these flashes were only a faint indications of what was to become my permanent experience. I can only write about the inner experiences that I am personally having and the understandings that arise from them. I can only describe what I see and understand.

What Happens to Stress and Pain After Self-Realization

Our consciousness can range from the wonderfully divine to the most dense limiting experiences possible. However in the growth towards enlightened awareness the negative unproductive aspects of life become less and less engaging and the expanded, productive values become more and more engaging. It is not that challenging personal situations all disappear in awakened consciousness but rather that they begin to be experienced in a vastly broader context that can no longer be hidden by them. Which in practical terms means that the influence of the awakening heart and mind spontaneously finds solutions to life’s problems and naturally spreads its light far and wide. The only serious hindrance to the full development of the heart and mind is complacency and lack understanding.

So is Anything Actually Unreal ?

Sure, that there is anything unreal is unreal. Any experience that is partial could be said to be temporarily unreal. In the state of full wakefulness there is no experience that is unreal since all experience is fully known and seen to be a connected continuum of our own unbounded-consciousness. Nothing can be removed from the one totality of an enlightened flow of events.

The whole idea of illusion arises from living a life that is not known or seen in its entirety, in that way it is an illusion. A partial value can never be fully real. It needs to be experienced in its entirety. When regular life hides ones inner consciousness then neither can be considered genuine or valid. When the reflection hides it’s own source then it could be said that one is living something that is not yet real. In that sense only, material creation is an illusion but only up until the full value of all layers of creation are experienced in their entirety all at the same time. This would be Self-Realization.

Like Cotton Soaked in Water Through and Through

My life like everyone’s life is rushing forward emotionally, physically, mentally and in all ways but all these aspects of my being I see and know as connected or permeated to an unchangingly vast field of quiet consciousness that is the very makeup, intelligence and energy of their source. From an early age I was somehow given to see, know and feel this silent life essence even in an around my body. This experience feels like all of me is flowing in complete sycronous balance throughout this infinite experience of completely luminous self-awareness. My immovable-awareness some how manages to move eternally without diminishing itself or anything else in any way. And I am just innocently standing at the door of them both somehow holding them in their place.

Consciousness Unlike The Body Does Not Age Or Get White Hair

The body ages but the mind and heart have a built in capacity to not age. What does that mean? When expanded, awareness becomes consciously appreciated as the nature of the mind and is perpetually recognized then consciousness fundamentally stops changing. It is then known to be eternal and infinate. My personal feeling, knowing and seeing from a very young age to now is that one bright, single day is passing, and will never finish passing. The days all are one non-interrupted passage of time, therefore I do see them all as change but within immovable consciousness. There is a universal field of unbounded knowledge and light that permeates thinking, sensory and even my physical existance. My nights are the same as my days, the awake mind does not recognize change as different from non-change. They are both aspects of never ending universal to personal experience.

Now, certainly my body and physical abilities are changing. But they are experienced on a field of timeless knowingness. This kind of experience is the birth-right of everyone. The aging process is outside and should not affect the realm of consciousness. I am forever aging but I know that will never get old. All processes are ultimately eternal and have no end. The only way to avoid the grip of fear that comes with growing old is to develop self-realization and the knowledge that comes with it. And the only way to do that is with systematic meditation and profound inquiry.

Breaking Out In Enlightenment

A temple I visited in India.

In the same way that an athlete develops certain muscles through specific exercises that are appropriate for his or her sport, consciousness also needs to be specifically exercised. The exercises for an athlete are usually designed by long-standing experts in the field. That is also true for meditation and in the gaining of understanding of that experience the mind and heart are developed to accommodate their more expanded values. There does need to be a desire and regular practice to achieve any lasting success. Fortunately it is much easier to naturally bend the mind than the body. The human mind can be conceived to have infinate flexibility, it would be impossible to imagine the body in the same way.

I use the words “Breaking Out in Enlightenment” to emphasize that permanent self-awareness arises simply and without fanfare. It kind of wells up from some unfathomable, limitless source and is then found to be occupying the whole heart and mind. And all the preliminary activities that I engaged in that lead up to the awakening experience all had their practical and necessary functions. But when the final moment came not any one activity, whether meditation, prayer, understanding or behavior seemed to be the specific cause, in fact the cause and the experience of self-awareness were discovered to be one and the same. I found that I had been living in, what I thought to be a temporary, very partially explored home. Until I wandered around and appreciated all the rooms I had no way of knowing the vast extent and what the ownership of my mansion actually meant or was.

The Senses And Desires Are Central To Awakening

Detail of one of the watercolor paintings.

In many circles the senses are considered to be hindrances or blocks to the development of higher states of awareness. This has not been my experience. If the always changing senses, the wandering mind, the too active intellect or the raging emotions are our only focus then it behooves us to look for a state of steady, quiet inner contentment that first underlies and eventually saturates and enhances all these layers with its influence. Now keep in mind that the purpose is not to get rid of anything, but to not be consumed by them. The purpose of life is not to get rid of it but live the full value of each and every aspect of it. Fortunately for me and everyone else this is not only possible but a fully awakened consciousness is the source and full value of every stream of experience.

As I moved through the various periods and states of awareness that I been and will be describing, every aspect of my life has come along for the ride. I have become more exuberantly talkative, exited and out-going, which for Finnish born fellow is quite extraordinary. (Here again check with my wife.)

Here is a typical Finnish joke to clarify this. (A very out-going Finnish man in a lively conversation with someone will look at the other person’s feet rather than his own while speaking.)

The senses independently and altogether are very interesting. We all know five of them, they do not compete but work together to convey all kinds of useful, enjoyable or unpleasant information. And who is the recipient of all this streaming info? There is an individual experiencer who naturally does the processing and has a choice in choosing what is useful and what is not. Now this experiencer is our overall consciousness which is flavored by our intelligence, personality, our feelings and our limitations. The thing is, most people lose pure-awareness when they are engaged with any of the senses. The question is how to influence self-awareness to clearly step out and become a conscious perception.

There is an expanded, abstract location or experience where every feeling and every thought sits at its source. Where even the senses are in their quietest state. This where the mind is naturally attracted to go because it is enjoyable. Where obstructions and limitations have not yet arisen. The pure-awareness of everyone as a conscious experience is this state. Meditation techniques are the simplest way to have this experience. With repetition this unbounded state gradually become permanent. Then the activity of the mind, heart and senses do not obscure realization. Deep understanding step by step makes it permanent and integrates pure-awareness with daily awareness in activity. The great thing is that the heart and mind are already configured to move in this direction since this is already their very idea of existance. In fact the reality is that the main purpose we have a life is to uncover this fundamental truth. The human heart, mind and body are the reservoir of this fundamental experience of truth. Like any treasure we have to desire to find it.

Imagine if even the senses were aware of and always in the presence of unbounded consciousness. Then it’s most basic quality, expanded happiness would also be lived in daily life. Hard to argue with happiness. There is not much of a jump from happiness to love. In my experience they are so similar that I do not differentiate between them. I could however say that, purely for the sake of understanding, that happiness is a general feeling and love is a specifically directed flow of happiness. We all love that which is closest to us most, then our friends, our community, our country, the whole world and finally if possible even the entire universe. My experience has all these different gradations of the heart-felt feeling of love. The main quality that has developed is that all the layers of love are experienced continuously as abstract universal love and constantly flow as specific streams of love within it. I will of course at any time take either one.

I am accepting and cherishing the outside as the inside and the inside as the outside. When this unity of experience where everything feels as familiar as ones own awareness, when it has become permanent is the mature experience of enlightened-awareness. The senses when they are known as and deliver nothing but qualities of pure-awareness then they do not disturb the experience of unbounded awareness and unbounded awareness does not disturb the senses. Then pure awareness has become the ocean in which all aspects, all layers of consciousness reside. This would be a very happy person.

The Primary Quality of Universal-Consciousness

My pencil drawing of my wife Cathy, from when we were first married.

A short passage from my upcoming book.

For me, only the simple, genuine experience of love transcends and expands all limitations. Just like universal-consciousness but much fuller, warmer— far more personal. In the early years of marriage I was very focused on the intense feelings that united us. This feeling was such a tangible force it only allowed me to move in concentric circles around the center of my attraction. However far apart we were, in fact, the farther we were the stronger I felt the pull. It was this point of love that years ago catapulted my first awakening into a more expanded, all-encompassing daily reality. If I were to give a name to the primary quality of all the states of awareness that I have traversed— that delightful something that united everything, it would have to be the almost indescribable experience of love. What I enjoy the most in my life is the immergence and quiet dominance of love as the whole liveliness of realized-awareness. Love is like a delightful spark in a vast ocean of inner to outer light that constantly kindles my whole awareness into a heart-full blaze of universal-consciousness.

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