My family moved to Canada from Finland when I was five. From this time, I clearly remember an experience that started developing, where I could see an unmoving sphere, or bubble, of comfortable light, or consciousness, that surrounded my body. If I moved my hand outside this safety net it looked somehow darker and I would draw it back to safety. In this space, I always felt that I could do no wrong since I was just flowing along without making any effort.
As I grew older this experience expanded and remained abstract for many years. I, of course, thought nothing of it, even though it was obviously a very basic aspect of my existence. When I was about eight or nine years old, I started experiencing what can only be described as a mixture of intense energy and over-whelming happiness. Every day I would have to leave the house and run/walk around the block for several hours until it was manageable again.
I would have long, grand insights that I felt completely unable to express out loud, along with apparently extended physical abilities, foresight, and streams of vision that I could not explain. The school I was attending at the time insisted that I demonstrate these physical abilities on stage; no one, including me, could understand how I could jump so high. People felt that I was in the air just a little too long for my own good.
I noticed in high school that I never actually fell asleep at night, and that nights and days just blended together uninterruptedly. This went on for years. When I would wake up in the morning I felt like I was falling asleep and when going to sleep at night I would seem to wake up.
When I was a young adult I started TM, then my personal experience really took off. I started first intuiting—then hearing, and seeing the subtle fabrics of the quietest levels of my own consciousness; pure abstract knowingness, from within its own nature, revealed its unified, wonderful structure of wholeness.For a number of years, I expressed these perceptions of more subtle levels of creation in watercolor and oil paintings and in sculpture. Throughout my life, I continued to work in the fine and decorative arts field.
About 30 years ago, I began to hear the hum of existence as layers of knowledge. I could see the divine heavens; I started experiencing the relationships that rendered everything one unified wholeness of multiplicity. And ultimately how, even daily life, far from being the football field of turbulent change, is nothing but the greatest expression of divine-to-Absolute-self-awareness.
And yet here we all are, essentially no different from each other. Nothing much changes. My experience is that all this is true for everybody. The “sphere of consciousness” around me as a child, is still there, but has expanded to include all the different layers of my awareness.