No Desire to Move on From Celestial Awareness

My daily experience became an immoveable shimmering awake silence on one side and the wonderful play of divine sights as if superimposed on both the active silence and on regular life.. There were now two newly acquired states of awareness along with waking, dreaming and sleeping as one consciousness. Of course, I paid far more attention to the supremely joyous happenings of heavenly activity that now inundated my awareness rather than to the Self-wakefulness. If one could get over the sheer extravagance and gorgeous nature of this state of divine living sight in which one is immersed body and soul with heavenly beings and their wonderful activity and abodes, then one could possibly desire to move on. But only if there was something even more satisfying. The whole experience was on the level of my senses. I had no desire to know or understand anything; everything was just great the way it was. In the same natural way that regular life was composed of all aspect of my mental, emotional and physical existance, my divine experiences and perceptions simultaneously permeated them all as well.

At this time, it seemed impossible to have anything more than my present exquisite awakening. Over the next few years however, I slowly began to have flashes of knowledge and understanding about these divine perceptions and how they fit into a more expanded reality of experience. But really, I was in no hurry to move on.

The march of progress presented more and more flashes of pure understanding that stayed around longer and longer until one day I realized that a very tangible, enlivened knowledge-state of awareness had somehow become my experience as well. How then was this different from my previous experience? For one thing I was not in the over-powering grip of divine perceptions even though they were still clearly evident and enjoyed. My experience now was of a unified understanding. It was not abstract or vague. It was an experience of the substance and movement of the underlying composition and unity of all divine and physical matter. I was constantly aware that my surrounding space and everything in it was intimately connected to me. When engaged in any mental or physical activity I felt that I was delicately swimming in a consciousness that was like blissful soothing liquid. My outside and inside experience were and are in open contact with each other. I was as familiar with my environment as I was with my own consciousness. The clear distinction between inner and outer had become porous. Understanding was so rich that even feelings and senses were incorporated into its very structure and somehow, even my body had become deeply involved in the whole phenomenon.

I was now seeing the divine strata of my experience in a different way. At first I thought they had lost clarity or definition until I realized that everything was now part of a much larger, all-functioning-together sort of experience. The celestial values of my experience did not diminish. In fact, when unified understanding became an integral part of the sense of inner-to-outer sight, the whole experience gained a joy that was more pronounced.

I noticed that the different layers of my experience were all neatly both divided and joined. They were joined as a continuum, just like regular thoughts, yet also they were clearly delineated which enabled sharper focus on each aspect of my awareness. At first I could not see what gave rise to the divine forms of that knowledge because I was looking, in the old way, for something that I thought was an isolated experience. As soon as I realized or got used to experiencing the layers of my consciousness all at the same time, in their unified state, then I was able to appreciate the more specific divine aspects of my awareness at will.